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dateademisexualpersonwho:

Date a demisexual person who would have a whipped cream fight with you

You broke the last piece of my heart. After having a breakdown, falling down on the fIoor and waking up crying, I’m lying here in my bed with a knife in my hand, wanting to kill myself but unable to move. Theres nothing left in me. After all these years of pain you took the last piece of strength and hope with you. The last piece of trust. Its not your fault, you couldnt know how unlovable I clearly am. You couldn’t know that there was only this little piece left I gave to you because I thought you’re such a lovely person and I wanted you to have it. I trusted you, but I am sorry for annoying you all that time and for being unworthy of your love and time.

I am also sorry for annoying all the other people I met before and not being good enough for them as well. I am sorry for being in the way and unable to function as I should, leading everyone to belittling me, punishing me and pushing me away. 

I’m gonna buy pentobarbital sodium as soon as I have the money and got rid of all my stuff and paid the rent and everything so my parents wont get any problems. Im gonna leave, because I cant live my life anymore and Im broken and there is nothing left that could be healed. 

Nobody can feel your pain except you. Dont judge me. Pentobarbital Sodium is popular for being a painless way to go if someone wanted to know.

When I have finished my college studies, my plan is to be unemployed, lying in bed and waiting for my death.

I dont belong here. I dont know how to live, how to behave like a human being, life overstrains me, I am afraid of everything all the time and I am incapable of the simplest things. I’m always in the way, people belittling me and I’ve been wanting to die for a lot of years now. Im not made out for life and it would be easier if I simply didnt exist.